that not so pleasant bubbly feeling
Wow. I'm really not good at dealing with stress and I'm not good at dealing with emotions. I'm not good at taking care of myself at all.
I worry to much about everyone around me. Haha I do. I want every single one of all my friends to be happy. Unfortunatly this mean I do put myself in second place. I need to find a balance between carrying about you all and still make sure I'm feeling happy about myself. Because right now confidence is a tat low....
I tend to collect everything and just keep it inside of me until something happens that just release it all and I become one over emotional bastard. And by the look of things I'm in one of those periods now. I'm just crying all the time. Everyday. Wake up in tears. And the worst part of it.. I don't know why half of the times. And most of the other times it is over thing I know doesn't matter and things I know I normaly wouldn't react this strongly over.
I always found this interesting in a very odd way. haha I must be freaking all my neighbours out by constantly walking around sobbing XD But as I said, I really can't control it.
I'm pretty much having emotional diarrhea right now. It comes when I least expect it and when it comes there is no stopping it.
But just like when you are having... erhm digesting problems(?) I just want to get it all out of my system. I want to reach that point when I'm completely drained of all emotions and can go back to constant happiness! and to go back and feeling better about life, my confidence back on top. :)
It is strange, But I do hope I find a better way to deal with this in the future. But right now it feels really tough, so peeps hang in there. It will pass. And I try to not let it get overhand.
aarrgh, in an attempt to solve it I'm walking around with a notepad writing things down... erhm don't know if it's working for me. But worth a shot I guess :)
I worry to much about everyone around me. Haha I do. I want every single one of all my friends to be happy. Unfortunatly this mean I do put myself in second place. I need to find a balance between carrying about you all and still make sure I'm feeling happy about myself. Because right now confidence is a tat low....
I tend to collect everything and just keep it inside of me until something happens that just release it all and I become one over emotional bastard. And by the look of things I'm in one of those periods now. I'm just crying all the time. Everyday. Wake up in tears. And the worst part of it.. I don't know why half of the times. And most of the other times it is over thing I know doesn't matter and things I know I normaly wouldn't react this strongly over.
I always found this interesting in a very odd way. haha I must be freaking all my neighbours out by constantly walking around sobbing XD But as I said, I really can't control it.
I'm pretty much having emotional diarrhea right now. It comes when I least expect it and when it comes there is no stopping it.
But just like when you are having... erhm digesting problems(?) I just want to get it all out of my system. I want to reach that point when I'm completely drained of all emotions and can go back to constant happiness! and to go back and feeling better about life, my confidence back on top. :)
It is strange, But I do hope I find a better way to deal with this in the future. But right now it feels really tough, so peeps hang in there. It will pass. And I try to not let it get overhand.
aarrgh, in an attempt to solve it I'm walking around with a notepad writing things down... erhm don't know if it's working for me. But worth a shot I guess :)
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Postat av: engström
Hang in there, fröken snygg! Helt ok att känna så där ibland. Det är omöjligt att vara på topp hela tiden, så ta din tid, sköt om dig ordentligt och prioritera dig själv så mycket det bara går! Massive hugs xxx
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