excitement!! (and very appropriate song.. and no, not rebecca)
(is it wrong of me for, ones again, finding myself singing Rebecca Black - Friday?)
Back is packed! I am showered! And I ,at least to my knowledge, smell relativly nice. More or less I'm ready to leave this hamster wheel of mine for another one for 2 weeks.
I remember promising an appropriate song. THE POINTER SISTERS!!
sigh, I have issues.
That issue is: being a woman. a stereotypical woman even. oh feck.
I did buy those fabulous shoes. And yesterday I bough make-up.. I doubt I need but still.
and today I managed to find:
one white shirt (I'm thinking with my black tight skirt?? and the heels?? and red lips?? oh yes)
a summer dress (which won't be worn in public)
a bandeau kind of top...
AND!! to my joy! I found a pair of grey jeans! :D 400:- (or £40) they are fab! love cheap monday jeans. never been able to have a pair since my booty didn't allow it. but clearly the booty is gone (according to my mom I have no ass anymore so that solved that problem).
But seriosuly... no more shopping. honestly I'm glad I can't.. tomorrow I'll be home packing and chillaxing, and then I'm off to that.. other place. ;)
Women's world cup (in football fyi) has begun...
and I have made a note int the calander for every game with the swedish team.
28th (15:00) - Colombia
2nd (14:00) - North Korea
6th (20:45) - the US
just noticed 2 of the games are when I'm not actually able to watch them. Damn. the 2nd I'm taking the train to Inverurie. And the 6th I'm flying to Belfast... bugger.
Oh well. Hopefully they will win and play in the quarterfinals the 9th or 10th.
the magic of number 7.
7 seems to be the magical number at midsummer.
In my midsummer crown I have 7 different kinds of flowers
Too dream about the man I'll marry I'm suppose to jump over 7 roundpole fences, 7 meadows and pick 7 kinds of flowers and place them under my pillow. Fortunatly last time I did this I dreamt about zombies and woke up with a fun allergy... So I'm just gonna assume I'll be a single gal until me and my cats perish.
7 is also the number of hairs I've plucked from my mothers mustache this morning.
Midsummer is ALWAYS the best day of the year! I still remember midsummer in Berlin a couple of sumemrs ago (mainly because of the drunk bartender and Åke shouting "it's a penis!! we dance around a giant dick!!" bless him haha). Or two summers ago when we were at Julia's summer house? or last year when we had a big celebration with a ,(most likely) slightly high, music teacher and we sat around singing and playing the guitarr all night?
Fun fact time!
The form of the midsummer pole (maypole/giant dick as Åka called it) is said to come from pre-christian times, and was a phallic fertility symbol, meant to impregnate the earth. Now this has never been proven. But by the shape of the pole... and the fact that we're in sweden.. I'm accepting this as a legit explination.
In my midsummer crown I have 7 different kinds of flowers
Too dream about the man I'll marry I'm suppose to jump over 7 roundpole fences, 7 meadows and pick 7 kinds of flowers and place them under my pillow. Fortunatly last time I did this I dreamt about zombies and woke up with a fun allergy... So I'm just gonna assume I'll be a single gal until me and my cats perish.
7 is also the number of hairs I've plucked from my mothers mustache this morning.
Midsummer is ALWAYS the best day of the year! I still remember midsummer in Berlin a couple of sumemrs ago (mainly because of the drunk bartender and Åke shouting "it's a penis!! we dance around a giant dick!!" bless him haha). Or two summers ago when we were at Julia's summer house? or last year when we had a big celebration with a ,(most likely) slightly high, music teacher and we sat around singing and playing the guitarr all night?
Fun fact time!
The form of the midsummer pole (maypole/giant dick as Åka called it) is said to come from pre-christian times, and was a phallic fertility symbol, meant to impregnate the earth. Now this has never been proven. But by the shape of the pole... and the fact that we're in sweden.. I'm accepting this as a legit explination.
aaargh!!! I got a new baby!!!
It's a shoe!! sobs* 5,3 inches... in beautiful beige suede. awwww.... soo pretty! and damn they make my legs look haawt!
I know: to wear them I need a tall boyfriend.. but peeps, oh no! you got it all wrong. With shoes like these you don't need a boy.
I have issues. I'm short of money, especially since I yesterday paid my flight ticket to belfast. and today I'm buyingthe ticket to london and to gothenburg... BUT STILL I find it possible to justify a £100 purchase of shoes (of course it's justifiable!)
I hate neighbours (hate is a strong like, I don't know them really... but.. damn)
This is NOT ok. I'm so looking forward to next year when I won't have to deal with any neighbours or walls next to anyone else. I'm so fed up. DRA was ok, But here at home....sigh. I wake up 8 every morning by my indolent neighbours (the one above me btw.) who for some reason haven't quite mastered the technique of TURNING OF THE ALARM! for 1h, every morning that thing goes off every 8th min. This has been going on every night, even on weekends and vacations for over 2 years.
I think that's borderline to ridiculous
summer in sweeeden!
Glorious sweden! I've missed this... even though i still feel kind of, erhm, out of place at times. I still say cheers and sorry instead of the usual tack and ursäkta. I'm damaged from almost 8 months in scotland I fear. But slowly getting more climatized (if that's even a word/if that's how you spell it)
that not so pleasant bubbly feeling
Wow. I'm really not good at dealing with stress and I'm not good at dealing with emotions. I'm not good at taking care of myself at all.
I worry to much about everyone around me. Haha I do. I want every single one of all my friends to be happy. Unfortunatly this mean I do put myself in second place. I need to find a balance between carrying about you all and still make sure I'm feeling happy about myself. Because right now confidence is a tat low....
I tend to collect everything and just keep it inside of me until something happens that just release it all and I become one over emotional bastard. And by the look of things I'm in one of those periods now. I'm just crying all the time. Everyday. Wake up in tears. And the worst part of it.. I don't know why half of the times. And most of the other times it is over thing I know doesn't matter and things I know I normaly wouldn't react this strongly over.
I always found this interesting in a very odd way. haha I must be freaking all my neighbours out by constantly walking around sobbing XD But as I said, I really can't control it.
I'm pretty much having emotional diarrhea right now. It comes when I least expect it and when it comes there is no stopping it.
But just like when you are having... erhm digesting problems(?) I just want to get it all out of my system. I want to reach that point when I'm completely drained of all emotions and can go back to constant happiness! and to go back and feeling better about life, my confidence back on top. :)
It is strange, But I do hope I find a better way to deal with this in the future. But right now it feels really tough, so peeps hang in there. It will pass. And I try to not let it get overhand.
aarrgh, in an attempt to solve it I'm walking around with a notepad writing things down... erhm don't know if it's working for me. But worth a shot I guess :)
I worry to much about everyone around me. Haha I do. I want every single one of all my friends to be happy. Unfortunatly this mean I do put myself in second place. I need to find a balance between carrying about you all and still make sure I'm feeling happy about myself. Because right now confidence is a tat low....
I tend to collect everything and just keep it inside of me until something happens that just release it all and I become one over emotional bastard. And by the look of things I'm in one of those periods now. I'm just crying all the time. Everyday. Wake up in tears. And the worst part of it.. I don't know why half of the times. And most of the other times it is over thing I know doesn't matter and things I know I normaly wouldn't react this strongly over.
I always found this interesting in a very odd way. haha I must be freaking all my neighbours out by constantly walking around sobbing XD But as I said, I really can't control it.
I'm pretty much having emotional diarrhea right now. It comes when I least expect it and when it comes there is no stopping it.
But just like when you are having... erhm digesting problems(?) I just want to get it all out of my system. I want to reach that point when I'm completely drained of all emotions and can go back to constant happiness! and to go back and feeling better about life, my confidence back on top. :)
It is strange, But I do hope I find a better way to deal with this in the future. But right now it feels really tough, so peeps hang in there. It will pass. And I try to not let it get overhand.
aarrgh, in an attempt to solve it I'm walking around with a notepad writing things down... erhm don't know if it's working for me. But worth a shot I guess :)
