An amazing - with a monthly supply of ass molesting- last day in sweden!!
Couldn't ask for a better end of the summer (well.. I could have skipped the thunderstorm and heavy rain fall.. and the having to clear up one of my yet epic misunderstandings ;) but other then that, haha good day)!!!
Have almost finished packing (though it ways 19.9 kg already) and I am sore from the zumba. WHich I loved!! me and my ass-ladies shacking what our mothers gave us ;) and of course we had the essential Sushi!
Home and out again. Nice glass of wine in town with a lot of the old gang- oh dear I'm gonna miss you all! then johan for his going away thing.
So.much.fun.
and the night ended with plenty of ass molesting <3
Such an amazing day. I really couldn't ask for more. I'm gonna miss everyone of you! (except for julia.. I'll see enough of you in st andrews haha)
But I'm so ready for the fun fun fun plane trip tomorrow with johan and julia. And I'm more then ready to head back to st andrews.
The Stones at midnight
Can't. sleep. therefore I do the only reasonable thing there is to do: put on some Stones and write yet another pointless blog entry ;) I do wish I could listen to the Vinyl I bought today when I had a massive catching up with julia. But the lack of a recordplayer forces me to use itunes. Which is not to shady. haha the same album after all ^^ just has to wait a weeee bit longer for the real deal.
Only one day left in sweden and I'm feeling... empty. I don't know the whole panic over packing and cleaning -which i still haven't done (pat on the shoulders for that one dearie)- has just postponed any type of actual reflection over the summer and the excitement of returning.
And tomorrow is packed full with stuff to do and be done! laundry, Meeting julia and lynn for zumba and sushi, then home and pack.. everything! Then get ready and go out for a going away party (not mine but I still count it haha). Get home at a sensible time because on monday I'm off.
Feck just realized I got to exchange money tomorrow---- facepalm.
TO many stressful thoughts!! when dear lord will I learn to prepare in time. sake. haha I know it will work out it alays does ;) after all I'm a kind of "won't happen until the final hour" type of girl. I just wished for the sake of my sleeping pattern I wasn't.
I'm at a very tedious- realy really tired but way to many thoughts spinning around making my brain refusing to relax enough to actually fall a sleep and senteces in my brain are like the one I'm typing right now without any pauses.
Have I mentioned that I bought a new vinyl btw? haha probably.. can't be arsed re reading this ;) so appologiez for type errors. I'm swedish by heart and to lazy to see which button I press on the keyboard. I'm having a brain meltdown overe here!
...My brain is one big disfuncional comedian.
E.g...Sitting at work. Mentally doing one of those "imagine youself.." sort of excersises.. and what does my brain give me: "Imagine you're a beaver.." wtf.. brain really? a beaver? I actually expected my thought pattern to be more alonge the lines of "imagine yourself being a tree"
this ofc creates the "the awkward moment when you start to giggle at something you know you can never actually explain to anyone and still be considered a sane person"
No I really wish my brain came with a set of manuals. However, I am relatively easy to entertaine.. Just put me in a room by myself and I'm fine. Piece of cake!
mel's well shaped calf muscles perfectly displayed in a kilt. My hearth is melting!
What could possibly be better then planing a BraveHeart night WITH all the english stereotypical dishes? Tea, scones and biscuits! oh hoho can't wait. and my extremly desperat female hormones are in high people! Started the day with a women seminar about getting the power positions at companies! I was scarred at first being placed amongst a group of poeple I usually call: "the menopause femenist group" but I walked out ready to beat up every man that came in my way.. I've calmed down now (thank god for that). these femenist warrior hormones are really not to be taken lightly.
ARGH! but yes lets enjoy mr Gibson slaying the scottish accent and the english. whilst wearing a skirt and a cockbag. as I said, THE Perfect evening.
ARGH! but yes lets enjoy mr Gibson slaying the scottish accent and the english. whilst wearing a skirt and a cockbag. as I said, THE Perfect evening.
best cover ever...
first I'd like to point out that I in general tend to love the original more then covers.. not that covers are always shit, but just because, especially when the original artist is the lyrics writer as well, the original tends to be how it is meant to sound. (exception example: Satisfaction by the Rolling Stones, keith richards admits that the way otis redding perfomed that song was the way it was how he intended it to sound like when he wrote it. a wee bit of trivia during lunchbreak ^^)
BUT there is one cover that I (even if I love the original) i have to admit is better as a cover. And of course it is Halleluja by Jeff Buckley. and those who know me are aware that I'm a fan of Leonard cohen so in theory I should prefer the original -but no. there is just something about jeff's voice in this version that penetrates my soul! (I would in viking terms call it "soul raped" and plundered of my will to think) I just listen to that song.. I don't think, I just feel. And that is the magic of that song. It is unquestionably in my book one of the most amazing covers of all time. I want to learn how to play it on guitar but I know I'll slay it if I do so I'm gonna leave it to the more talanted people in the world ;)
also I find it ironic that after Jeff's cover a lot of people are covering his cover.. and not the original. and I know all the singing contest usually has one that attempts it (alexandra burk anyone) and even if they sing it beautifly.. just stop. You won't ever reach this level. this song is to... to... emotional Jeff did it to perfect in his imperfection. You all trying to make it vocaly perfect just isn't doing the trick. He didn't possess the best voice he had the emotions that the song required. So singing contest people: don't pick emotional song.. just take a regual pop song.
BUT there is one cover that I (even if I love the original) i have to admit is better as a cover. And of course it is Halleluja by Jeff Buckley. and those who know me are aware that I'm a fan of Leonard cohen so in theory I should prefer the original -but no. there is just something about jeff's voice in this version that penetrates my soul! (I would in viking terms call it "soul raped" and plundered of my will to think) I just listen to that song.. I don't think, I just feel. And that is the magic of that song. It is unquestionably in my book one of the most amazing covers of all time. I want to learn how to play it on guitar but I know I'll slay it if I do so I'm gonna leave it to the more talanted people in the world ;)
also I find it ironic that after Jeff's cover a lot of people are covering his cover.. and not the original. and I know all the singing contest usually has one that attempts it (alexandra burk anyone) and even if they sing it beautifly.. just stop. You won't ever reach this level. this song is to... to... emotional Jeff did it to perfect in his imperfection. You all trying to make it vocaly perfect just isn't doing the trick. He didn't possess the best voice he had the emotions that the song required. So singing contest people: don't pick emotional song.. just take a regual pop song.
panic alt. just very annoyingly wound up.
I'm actually annoying myself to insaity right now. haha I don't like people that are all over the place (the swedish word for it is "stissig".. really don't have a good translation, but nervous breakdown kind of all over the place) which makes it really difficult to be in possession of my own brain right now. So I'm sorry if I "attack", makes no sense or just am a major pain in the ass.
But if it makes it any better I'm having an anxiety attack.. uuuh. I need to do all the laundry, whilst planing what the heck I'm gonna wear this week.. just so I can plan when to do the laundry (I know.. such a hassle!) and I just can't get my act together :( I want to do everything but there's no time for it..
honestly I'm really regretting moving back so soon after finishing work. I work a 9-5 job and when I get home I have no energy to do anything. And YET I have to do everything. Tomorrow I'm heading straight to IKEA after work. Can't see myself enjoying that... and that's IKEA?!
haha obviously I can't wait until I'm back, but right now if could magically stop time or something.. I wouldn't mind ;)
boom shakalack!
.. I struggled with that headline. And, well, that was all my brain would give me.
Anyhow! ahaaa... good day! good day indeed. the sun has finally made it's presense known in this "summer" month of august. And about blood time if you ask me!! I only have 9days until I return to scottish ground and I'd like if I wasn't remembering beautiful sweden by it's floods and 24/7 rainfall.
damn... 9 days left. Shite. And so much to do and so many paople I need to see! I'm almst fully booked the last week (not completely but almost!) and I have to make sure I make some time for my dad and siblings as well :/ Today I'm busy helping out with catering for one of my firends parents who are renewing their vows. I am cashing in a little on it. about £50. But honestly I had said yes before I knew I'd get paid. For all the summers I came with them in their boat. And particularly one period related insident in this wee boat that ended in her mum scrubbing the betset by hand in the wee kitchen sink on the boat... lets just say I'd have happily helped them tonight for free.
And tomorrow birthday celebration. Then I shall work the entire week.. meet friends and next weekend I'm.. feck I have plans but have forgotten about them (facepalm). I know I'm busy sunday and that I'm going out on sunday. oh well I'll remember sooner or later.
Also I have to have a trip to IKEA, into town and do some shopping, exchange money so I can actually pay for the bus to st andrews and food when I get there...
urk. I was longing back to st andrews but now it all just seem like such a hassle. And I need to transfer my money.. and flight ticket. and argh!! where has all my time gone!?!?
on the edge of sanity...
(just read that apparently edge of sanity is a swedish death metal band... just wanted to point of that that band has NOTHING to do with this entry. Sorry to disappoint some.. death metal isn't really my cup of tea. I'm more of a green tea sort of person, a bit bland)
I'm going INSANE here ---- Sitting infront of the computer, copy pasting the same..well sh** for hours in a row. If it wasn't for the fact that I'm actually doing someone a really nice favour and a good deed I would probably have thrown the keyboard in their face for asking me. BUT as the good and calm person *cough* I am + as I said I'm quite glad to be helping out, and at least I'm doing something more then playing games on my phone (since Volvo has limited the access on every fun webpage, facebook - limited, youtube -limited, most blogs - denied access)
I shouldn't complain I know.. I have a job, which I do really love. But I'm just not a sitting and staring at a computer screen type of person.
urk. I think my eyesight is deteriorating. I'm seeing double. can't... keep... eyes... open...
I'm going INSANE here ---- Sitting infront of the computer, copy pasting the same..well sh** for hours in a row. If it wasn't for the fact that I'm actually doing someone a really nice favour and a good deed I would probably have thrown the keyboard in their face for asking me. BUT as the good and calm person *cough* I am + as I said I'm quite glad to be helping out, and at least I'm doing something more then playing games on my phone (since Volvo has limited the access on every fun webpage, facebook - limited, youtube -limited, most blogs - denied access)
I shouldn't complain I know.. I have a job, which I do really love. But I'm just not a sitting and staring at a computer screen type of person.
urk. I think my eyesight is deteriorating. I'm seeing double. can't... keep... eyes... open...
Gothenburg festival
ok. I know that it's suppose to be translated into the gothenburg party (or even worse the culture party). But I'm old school like that and it is a festival kind of 6 day event! tones of music and food and and and stuff everywhere! I love it.
Saw Movits! live for example. They where magic. I think that might just be one of the best gigs I've been too.. if not they have an easy place in my top 3. Just so much saxophone! and it just made you dance. It's like the music forced you to! which luckily happens to be just the way I like it.
Today I just got to chill in town, had an AMAZING vegan chickpea curry and massive bean sallad (get the feeling my stomach is gonna be really great tomorrow at work... shit didn't think of that) and just random banter! oh dear LORD I missed the banters we all could have at times.
I'm actually not homesick for st andrews anymore. Just really, really enjoying being home with the old gang and being around people that even if you haven't seen them for a whole year you can still just catch up right where you left it and be as, well, normal.
+ Gothenburg actually filled with people, police and noice. I just kept looking for the vomit and the drunks..
"I should grow up, cut my hair and get a job, and not tryin to be James Brown"
Vinyl is just... sexy!
If Vinyl was described one song it would be foxy lady by Jimi Hendrix. E
veryone has to agree with me on that! It has that old school, hollywood class that CDs just don't have!
And I have now finally started my record collection, by buying the one record I always wanted.. with my absolutely, no questions about it, favourite song: It ain't me babe. Of course I'm talkig about mr Bob Dylan.
I'm on cloud nine right now. I can't believe I finally did it! I know my future collection will be mainly consisting of second hand - which is exactly I want! I love the thought of going through boxes of records at second hand shops.
But I did want my first one to be mine. Just mine. So I bought it new. People, it's my record virginity we're talking about here and I take these things deadly serious. I have even maped out all secondhand shops in edinburgh that sells Vinyl and I have looked up a fair in dundee that I am most defenitly going to.
Only problem, my WANT list is far too long. But jimi hendrix, the old school blues of muddy waters etc are high up. As well as Queen, Beatles, stones.. etc etc. damn, just too many to even name them all.
overwhelmed by boredom (19 days until I return to the bubble)
Cured by golf. The only cure there is.. tomorrow is the big day: PGA Championship!
McIlroy and Clark have been paired together! LIKE! My beloved NI duo (not forgetting McDowell).
My boredom is cured by thinking about watching golf tomorrow. oh dear. I'm turning into a granny. noticed I started to use curses such as "sweet jesus" and "god almighty!"... oh feck. Well talking to my "cum stain in her mothers womb" friend help as well ;)
oh dear,
Went for a short walk, as usual, and came back with a sore throat, aching ears and still a really sore back. Sake!! Well sick or not I'm working.. but the backpain, irritating. It feels like a nerve is pinched between the vertebrae. I just want someone to stand on my back and crack the whole thing. I always say: If you wish to be run over by a bulldozer... you might just be in pain. Well it 's not like I aaalways say it. But you get my drift.
*add sigh that indicates the emotion that there is no hope in the world and you should all pitty me because I'm old and weak without technically being old... it's a complicated sigh but I'm sure all of my dear friends can imagine it, I do it quuite often after all* :P
Going to bed, praying for a miracle. I don't usually have pain for more then a day so positive thoughts :)
Riots
I'm sorry.. If you wanted my sympathy and me to agree with you. Destroying peoples stores and properties, not really the way to go. If anything you make me stand behind the police 99% on this one. And right now all I hope is that they catch every single one of you.
I understand people being frustrated and agrer about the cuts the government has been doing. The UK is severely in debt and cuts were necessary to do, but the cuts have been affecting the wrong group of people. It angers me as well. trust me. But the imiges I see and the news I hear from London just pisses me off. Fully. The same feeling I got when it was the previous riot in London last fall regarding the tuition fees (yes, I was there and I walked in the demonstration, I care). But when does it ever become ok to use violence to make people feel for you?
another thing that I think is completely intolerable, but important to point out; These people don't think about democracy, these people aren't rioting due to the death of an young father of 4, Most of these people are just criminals seeing the opportunity created by the disorder and taking it.
A few ruining for many.
I understand people being frustrated and agrer about the cuts the government has been doing. The UK is severely in debt and cuts were necessary to do, but the cuts have been affecting the wrong group of people. It angers me as well. trust me. But the imiges I see and the news I hear from London just pisses me off. Fully. The same feeling I got when it was the previous riot in London last fall regarding the tuition fees (yes, I was there and I walked in the demonstration, I care). But when does it ever become ok to use violence to make people feel for you?
another thing that I think is completely intolerable, but important to point out; These people don't think about democracy, these people aren't rioting due to the death of an young father of 4, Most of these people are just criminals seeing the opportunity created by the disorder and taking it.
A few ruining for many.
In the last couple of days I've had a revolutionary awakening!
revolutionary and revolutionarey.. I've just had an awakening that made me grow a thicker skin more or less.
Some people just aren't worth my precious time. Sorry, but I think every single person can agree on that one.
I'm just glad it finally came back to me!
I used to be confident and happy 24/7. I don't know, I guess I just had my confidence pushed of my little pedistal.. I was pissed about it for weeks, but being angry in yourself for lack of believe in yourself, ehh lets just say it clearly just isn't the right method to deal with it ;) . But now I'm back on track and loving it!
I know what I want in life, and I'm f-ing getting there!
My biggest problem was (and probably still is) that I care too much about people. that's the a and b of my problem, if there now is such a thing?
I've been told I care too much and that I forgive far too easily. But I don't see that as a problem. However it does become a problem when I get the feeling people just take that side of me for granted and make me feel like I can be pushed over. I think that's actually the only reason I've cried in the last couple of years even.. (with a few exceptions)
My friends however, are more precious to me then ever! :) I love every single one of you! (even if I at times say the creepiest stuff)
The best thing christianity ever gave us: "Treat others how you would like to be treated" and I'm sticking by it (meaning we all fuck up but we just have to be able to forgive anyway)
really life? Why would you place one of "those" days on a friday.. bitch I declare war
ffs. I could barely get out of bed before things desided to go straight to hell! Weather's bad, my hair's even worse.. Sersiously I'm glad I made it to work! considering I drove without my glasses.. again (you think I'd remember when I can't read the number on the bus infront of me).
However coming to work didn't help. just as I did probably a parking (if you can consider it parking) that would have insured I failed the drivers test.. I realize I've forgotten my lunch... and breakfast.. and snack. facepalm. Overwhelmed by indifference I leave the car anyway. But oh no! it won't end there.. as I enter the building I 1)trip on air 2) get attacked by a massive spider 3)jump and run away like a little girl into someone else. I f-ing hate life right now.
But no. that's not quite it. Clearly I'm incapable of locking the bathroom door without injuring myself today. Got a nice red mark right across the wrist. Really? Life see I think that's a bit over exaggerating don't you.
hungry and tired.. it's not even 7am yet!!!!! know what! fine! I'm just gonna spend my day in this chair in fear of further ruining my day. Well I do have to go to the liquor store at some point. and to my friends moving-in-party.
That should kick the feeling of indifference and moodyness out of me! I feel better just thinking about it.. :)
See life? this is war bitch- not that I know exactly how I would beat you yet. Feels like killing you wouldn't really be in my benefit. I'm just gonna do what I do to everything else (and strangely enough what the bible taught me...) turn the other cheek. And be overly positive!! HA HA HA! (clearly also go slightly mad so you might just leave me on your own will)
....and now I'm surrounded by a fly infestation... massive facepalm.
my piece of music heaven...
1 august
first day of my third working week. And the day I will remember as the day that dubble bed in st andrews became mine! and the rooms it's located in as well.
Really tired. my brain has become completely fried from starring at a computer screen and listening to a talking truck. With a quite horribe french accent. oh... just the thought of it.. and even worse is that I pressed the wrong button 3 times and had to start the entire segment all over again. ffs... I almost throw the computer out the wondow by the third time.
besides the usual volvo problem with non functioning programs... It was a really good day ;) I bet I'll soon be bff with all the people at IT-support. haha I call them almost everyday with retarded computer questions XD I have mentioned before I'm a technological retard. all electronical products I touch will breakdown sooner or later.
now... braindead I'm watching a sing-a-long program... with eurovision special, now playing: ABBA - WATERLOO!!!
excitement gone, next weeks guest: erik saade. after having to stand up, hand over the heart during the eurovision fest we had.... I'm scarred for life to say the least.
